C - on traveling 7000 miles just to watch movies

One good thing that's come out of our little China adventure is me overcoming my inability to sit through entire movies. Perhaps this has happened because I often feel the need to escape from this place and movies offer a way to do that. I've watched the following movies in the past month or so:

Thank You For Smoking
Walk the Line
The Shawshank Redemption
Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
A Beautiful Mind
Bridget Jones' Diary
Honey
Mission: Impossible
Groundhog Day
Snakes on a Plane

(The movies are ranked in the order in which I enjoyed them.)

Ten movies! In just a month! I typically watch only a handful of films per year.

Anyways, about my China funk. Some might think "Why are you unhappy? You seriously disrupted your and your husband's life after having the desire to do this for over two years -- why aren't you enjoying it?" Well, I don't know. I never thought of this trip as any kind of vacation. I guess living abroad is something I've always expected of myself, sort of in the same way certain countries require all of their young people to spend two years in the military. It was just something I had to do, and with China being a "hot topic" and a country I already had some level of interest in/experience with, it seemed like a good choice. But I'm sure it's odd to see someone struggling with something they have only a self-imposed obligation to do.